I need a mental health day...

Holy cow... I am sooo ready for a break. Yeah, it's nice to be busy sometimes, but this is ridiculous... The hubster and I do not have a free weekend until August 29... He is not so happy about it, but I can't help it! There's a lot happening this summer - weddings, cookouts, White Trash Party (more to come on that later), time with family, 10 yr high school reunion & our 1 year anniversary - just to name a few.

Included with all this busy chaos, is some very enjoyable stress for me... HA! Almost every day I tell myself to slow down & take a breath - and when that doesn't work, I tell myself that I should be blogging to help de-stress. So, I will now attempt to be on here more and vent, vent, vent, etc. OK... let's jump right in, shall we?

Some extra stress was added into our lives beginning this April. We decided we are ready to start a family :) This is a challenge in itself for us:
* I have Lupus and already know I will be a high risk pregnancy
* Some chemo treatments I had in 2004/2005 may have greatly reduced my chance at getting pregnant
* My original OB, who is an amazing Dr and knows my history, left the area this spring
* The second OB we found in April (and loved!) left the area in June
* We still don't have a new OB yet - our options are limited here...

We had some bloodwork done (with the second OB) - I tested positive for one not so fun thing and neutral for another - I may have to be on bloodthinners and who knows what else to have a healthy pregnancy. Even with these results, we were told to go ahead and start "trying" - just call the office if/when we had a positive home test. So far, there has not been a positive home test. Honestly, I am a bit relieved (but of course sad at the same time)... I am still not so sure about the bloodwork issues... We have an appointment tomorrow with a specialist in Indianapolis to discuss the bloodwork and our options... I'm hoping for some positive news.